i'm 22 this year...DAMN...i feel old...hahaha...well i keep asking myself "Do i feel like i'm 22? Do i look like i'm 22? Do i think like a 22 year old? Am i really 22 freaking years old?!?!?"(the inner child in me is screaming his lungs out saying "NOOOO, i don't want to grow up...HELP ME!!!")

to tell everyone the naked truth. I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'M 22 YEARS OLD. maybe its because i stop growing when i was 15 (LMAO). i was driving to tennis the other day and i turned and looked at my friend and ask "wei do you feel like you're 22 years old ah?" he gave he that WTF stare and gladly, proudly and absolutely confidently said "HELL NO". i think there is a certain stage where we guys/males/boys just stop growing and maturing mentally. maybe that explains why we act like bastards sometimes huh...we may look old physically but by some unearthly extraterrestrial power or presence the inner child/boy in us lives on. taking control of us ever so often. especially when we walk pass any toy shop(especially TOY R' US) *drools.......slurp*.

i was having breakfast with a couple of friends about a few weeks back . A friend was talking his RC car then suddenly said something which sounded like "big warehouse + toy shop"...the guys around the breakfast table went "OOOHHHHHHH WOOOOOOO....OK lets go now!!!" so we took a drive down to Nilai 3...yes i admit the "inner child" in me was leaping with joy. i almost jumped out of the moving car at the first sight of the "big warehouse + toy shop" luckily for me the child lock mechanism on the door was on. when we finally got down from the car we just stared at all the toys on display (RC cars, boats, trucks and HELICOPTERS) and said simultaneously "dude i want that one and that and this and that and all of it". seriously speaking, i felt like a 5 year old again. kids nowadays are so damn lucky la. their toys are so damn canggih wei...i jealous...my He-Man figurine couldn't talk or move on his own last time wor why now can wan...not fair...hahaha...we visited a few more toy shops sometimes getting lost in the maze of Gundams and Barbie Dolls. we ended up at the last shop and yes as the picture above has shown i bought a REMOTE CONTROL CAR !!!!!!!! woot woot.... YEAH... happy happy happy...*smilling proudly* its was then that i had an epiphany "the 5 year old in me is here to stay for a very very long time"...signing out for now world...

boys will always be boys,
as we boys get older,
we become men that are wiser,
then we know its time to get the bigger more expensive toys.

this isn't the random normal post or a nonsense rant.this is how i've been feeling these few days.this post is dedicated to my dad.i love you dad and i miss u too.

Here i sit in the empty chair where you sat,
I lay on the bed you once slept,
I walk the stairs you once walked,
I drink from the mug you once drank from,
I try to wear the shoes you once wore.

Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner never the same,
Celebrations a little less quieter,
Every year i wish you were here,
Just to make us laugh like you always did.

You've been gone 3 years now,
I've gotten by but i don't know how,
I still need you i really do,
So please come into my dream for awhile.

Forever and always you'll be in my heart,
In my life you played the biggest part,
Everytime i fall apart,
I close my eyes and somehow you pick me up.

Many years lie ahead,
Many roadblocks sure to come,
Many questions in life i will ask,
Many answers but none taken.

Cause the only thing i want to know,
Will i ever see you again,
My Hero My Dad.