miss home? miss being with family and friends? feeling that way...well thats what happen when we are far away from home...its called HOMESICK...suckiest feeling ever. even the smallest problems become big mountains to climb.its as though a light feather that drops on your shoulder feels like a 100 tonnes. feel like you don't have anyone to talk to or share your feelings with. you just feel like you're all alone and you ask yourself why is this happening to you. well then theres the emptiness and LONLINESS which just start eating you from inside until you finally give up and breakdown crying. it seems no one cares bout you. but back home everyone is actually thinking, missing and worrying bout you.i felt that way once. one of the worst time in my life...in a fucked up country...damn that country hopefully it vanishes from the face of the earth...lol...that'll be my b'day wish (am i full a hatred of what...revenge!!!) well anyway whenever "you" feel down know that i'll always be here for "you" k...(you know who you are when you read this blog)...hmm...just remember that everyone at home is just a call away...take care "you"...

as i pray every day,
and i dream every night,
when will you be back by my side.

on my bed i lay,
before i sleep tonight,
i wonder will i ever hold you by my side.

bored as hell today and i can't sleep now...why??cause i've been sleeping too much in the day...all day i did nothing...just lazing around...why??i need to relax for awhile...uni life ain't what i imagine it to be...its hectic,its screwed up and its hellalotof work work work...less projects more reports,less reports more assignments,less assignments more test...non-stop!!!what do they think the students are running on??steroids??damn give us a break...well thats what i feel bout uni life...people stay young...stay in school!!!yupz...thats the best place to be...fun,fun,fun and no study, no worries nothing...i wanna go back to high school!!!!!!haha...i regret i did have more fun when i was in high school...anyway i have to grow up (sad sad sad)...dumb peter pan...gave me hopeless dreams...making me think i could stay young forever...well the fun has to stop one day right...ok cheers guys...stay young!!!(no i'm not drunk...just bored)

we make new friends and lose old ones.meet new people and stop seeing the old ones.ever had that feeling?who are our true friends?ever felt you've been used by your friends...well not me...why am i writing this...hmmm...i wonder myself too...anyway have you ever lost that someone so special to you...someone you couldn't live without...someone that if you didn't talk to him/her your day won't be complete...or maybe whenever you're down that 'someone' will always be there...then one day suddenly 'BOOM BOOM BOOM'...gone...well thats what i've been feeling for the pass few weeks...but luckily that someone still talks to me...not everytime but sometimes...well i count myself lucky 'someone' is still talking to me.even with a busy schedule she still spend some time to chat with me...its not that i've no friends to share my problems with but i trust that 'someone' so much i could tell her anything i want...she maybe a listener or an adviser...still it feels good when i talk to that 'someone'...its a feeling you can't describe...something like unwrapping a present or having your favourite ice cream or...hmmmm...haven't seen 'someone' in awhile...hopefully times passes fast (really really fast)...can't wait to see 'someone'... ;op